I Need You

I was a good kid. I do chores and do my homework religiously. My parents are great, they have provided me with everything. My parents are hard workers. They have more time working than spending time with me. I know all they do is for our family, especially my future. But it so sad being always with myself and just helpers around me all the time.

When it comes to physical, glittery things I have don’t have shortage on it. My parents provided me with so much. But I really don’t want physical things anymore, I mean they are good, but I need someone who can connect with me on an emotional level. Guess what my parents are so busy with their jobs that when they came home from work, I already am asleep and when I wake up in the morning, they are already at work.

So, because of all this, I found myself without direction and route. I feel no emotional connection to my parents. I try to find it outside our home. I have met so many people and acquaintances and tried to connect with them for at least one night. At least outside I feel so accepted. With these newfound friends, I preoccupied myself with going out every night and party till I drop.

It is so tiring, and it feels empty to be with friends that are just there for the good times. I really want someone that can be there through my sorrow. My studies have been left out because I spend so much time outside partying and drowning myself with temporary happiness that can’t be found in our house.

I know deep down myself that this is not healthy in the long run. Somehow, I need counseling or a counselor to get hold of myself and get my life back on track.

I hope professionals will help me and I am hoping that it is not too late for me.